Dapprima fu lo Spirito… Lo avvertii, in silenzio. In seguito ebbe un Corpo… e lo vidi muoversi, lento.
poi Orecchi e Occhi… e li guardai scrutare, intorno. Poi fu la Bocca… e la udii cantare, lieve.
L’incantevole alito di note, a me, apparve come armonia divina.
e poi arrivò il Cuore… e fu l’inizio di ogni cosa.
Ne vidi comparire altri intorno, miriadi di miriadi di creature.
Esseri tutti disuguali nella forma ma simili nella loro eufonia.
Poi uno prese ad essere diverso, poi un altro...e un altro ancora
Poi ancora altri a mutare struttura e divennero tutti dissimilmente identici.
ma pochi soltanto, rimasero Antichi a perire, infanti, nel Mondo dei Tutti.
Alcuni ammattiti senza criterio, altri arrabbiati senza riguardo,
alcuni annientati dal troppo dolore ed altri sconfitti gettati nel vuoto.
visi pieni di rancore trasformati in orrori, ed esseri inermi proseguire da soli,
svariati di questi… scappare confusi, mentre alcuni, i più forti, marciare mutilati.
Ho visto troppo della storia degli Uomini che ne celebro oggi l’intollerabile epilogo
a monito eterno, per chi verrà domani, a fuggire la mandria…
in questo Mondo dei Troppi.
Rip the skin from a chamaleon and torment strongly the airiness on the roads.
Be anyone, be any hand to spank the dreams and be the nightmare instead and be the ghost and be its neverending screams.
I can't stop my whirling and beautiful mind
Stay on the chair!
Shut your eyes, don't sleep, don't give away the strenght.
“This is my story, of my frolic... is the end!”
Stay on the chair!
Shut your mouth, don’t lose sight of the goal, your medicine is out there.
This is my story, is my frolic.
To be anyone, to be any hand to tighten the noose around the neck of the weak
and to be the Clown who better kills its core deep inside
I can't stop my stubbornness!
I'll make you understand your blind eyes,
while every certainty writhes through my words.
When my strong hands will interweave your tongues be sure to run, I'm a kid with some pins... looking for moths.
This is my fateful worn out act:
you fall and my steps sound strong, I fall and you laugh at me.
It smells like Hell, the way you're pointing at, but I leave, to die.
Stay on the chair!
Shut your eyes, don't sleep, don't give away the strenght.
“This is my story, of my frolic... is the end!”
Stay on the chair!
Shut your mouth, don’t lose sight of the goal, rest finally and be the scapegot.
(Forgiveness act II)
Bless me God! Bless my arm and my fist!
Hold my mind on that bad, drive my tears out from Hell!
Fill this empty cold heart with vengeance and death!
Sat on a grey bed, a bed of cold leaves, your skin is frozen like a dying wind .
My sin is near and your sin is there where the bodies lie in the dark.
People from hell, unleash your fire to me, cause I should cry such a river on my brother's grave,
but this red bedclothes mean my will to see a hard day of my past cleansed by her tears and all her beauty disappeared.
F: my day as your night
M: now you’re crying
F: your light is so bright
M: forever and ever you will be blind
F: you’re closing my eyes and this sentence remain
M: and this sentence remain
F: my day as your night
M: again my hand
F: my light is not bright
M: blood on this floor is lifless and
F: you’re closing forever my eyes and this sentence of death still remain
M: and this sentence of death still remain
Sat on this grey bed, this bed of cold leaves, my hands are trembling and with bated breath, my nose is trying the taste of my soul's old unease.
Our eyes bathed in tears to fight all our fears, to fight the fear to live and the fear to die.
Now save my name, Brother, this body is torn under my knees.
I saw your face suffering in pain, from the other side.
Now save my name, Brother, hitting the air with blades,
my demons will not disappear.
Is nearby the netherworld fire, is burning my flesh again!
Somewhere outside I left myself.
I carefully laid all the parts of me to rest for life without a dream.
I left there smiles and happiness, every emotion I felt deep inside, every dagger I drew of from me.
And it was so long ago, it was so long ago.
Looking up, one day, to my existence today, I gently caressed my heart and from the hands I let it slip away.
Just moving hands to leave my friend, I heard him calling and calling but step by step I walked away ignoring the voice of a forsaken past.
In all the ways despite the words it says, never and never I’ll back, until all of me will be dead.
So deep out there.
And I saved my heart from death by rotting inside, cleaned out myself from the stink and from the monster I hide.
As in an ancient tomb I remain empty and wrong.
I keep walking and walking watching down my feet, watching my defeat.
Only remains that old taste and the pain of my heart
that beaten down all my best, broken out my chest, pushed down the deepest. It was too large for me.
I live, yes I live, I just live the nothingness from the last day I cried. Forgotten friend of mine, now I have the answers for you: rest forever and let me softly die!
I breathe…
what’s inside?
What are these colors around?
What are these sounds in my ears again?
What’s the smell in my nose, again?
Why hands are warming up again?
Are you awake, my friend?
Hot blood through my veins, and light fills my eyes, I feel like I have to find again the voice to cry out.
You are back to find my heart, now your hands are holding up it, wipe away my faults, you give me again a deep breath.
In all the ways now I have my life again,
never and never I’ll back until all of me will be dead.
So deep out there.
And you saved my heart from death, believing in me,
you’ve cleaned out my past from the stink and from the monster I am.
Nothing you’ll ever find on your way will never be stronger than the sparks you brought inside.
If you feel fear, close your eyes and look inside yourself for the sparks that carry your name.
Now open your eyes and let your light rise. Weep your precious stones, lighting up the world you’ll be quiet again.
We're not alone, just in one Heaven we can't keep safe our bones.
Open your mouth and shout your soul on my wide open hands.
Looking for ears around, for lovely tongues, unbound,
shut your eyes and listen to the sound of your body earthbound everytime.
For a long time, in vain, many paths your life presented you to achieve the aim, just getting the result of your flesh crushing over them, while life burdens slowly shrivel up your time.
We’re not alone, we are not defeated till our hands crush our doom.
Our triumph is to leave all behind.
You’ll surely find the force, at the bottom of the marsh.
Pull it out and push it down as you are planting (your) flag on the ground.
I saw your wings into your eyes, now green, now blue, now white as mine.
Spit all your pains out of your eyes, don't be an Angel out of Grace!
You’ll be just you. Keep on fighting!
A: I’m not fighting! I’m not fighting!
Just falling, just losing connection…
G: I can hear you, I can hear you!
regain altitude, regain faith and follow my voice…
A: this is not me! this is not me!
The humans belive the tears are Demons, but you resist. Because that water stream is God, carrying your murk, flowing out with it! And let the wind fill up your lungs, fly and be what inside you denied!
You leave the world.
Maybe I was severe about your fall to make an angry and hungry God of my own.
My mind is not fine, no, my mind is not fine at all.
I’m pushing your soul to fade and go, ready or not.
Collecting failures made me insane, you see?
But you’ll not be less!
My mind is not fine, no, my mind is not fine and there’s an empty space inside my core.
Sick and dark you will be underneath my rod (life loss)
and filled with hatred, with a greedy yearning mouth.
But you’ll not be less of this!
Free yourself from the stink, free your broken ailing spirit from the sludge and satisfy your hunger, now, as never before Death.
You leave the world.
Maybe I was severe about your fall to make an angry and hungry God of my own.
My mind is not fine, no, my mind is not fine and now you monster live inside my core.
Wear my body as the wreck I am, your new shape of haze and grudge.
Wear my body as the wreck I am, my new shape of flesh and bones.
Let your shell be empty and limp! I’ll be the home of your fresh force, we’ll never be slave of thirst again.
Let your shell be empty and limp! With pointed teeth, now, and cutting claws, we’ll never be derided strong again my fellow.
We will win, we’ll prevail, for sure we’ll always win.
It’s the dream I’ve created from us, that’s the dream I’ve created for us.
The air is wet tonight, I’m staring at a frozen sky.
Wind has chilled me to the bones but I’m still searching for you.
The wind’s just saying your name, again, in my ears...your voice...
But my voice of madness’s shouting louder, I’m beaten by thoughts that hit me harder, I scream alone, I cry alone and I dream of you.
Fighting till the end of my lonely days, longing for that moment when you breathe again, grabbing at the taste of a memory, I’m swearing to the heavens that I won’t be saint.
I will be like you.
I dare to look around whispering I'm safe and sound.
People linger in the dark searching for their long lost love.
Facing all my fears till my dying day, crawling in the dawn of the rising day, I will follow all the signs that you left to me. I’m swearing to the heavens that I won't be saint, that I will be just like you!
I'd wait for the sky to fall on the earth just to reach that shining cage and set you free from the greedy Eternity.
I'd sacrifice my soul to break the bonds that tie you up to that Damned Paradise.
I’m beaten by thoughts that hit me harder and I scream alone, I cry alone and I dream of you!
Deeply dedicated to my Mom A.G/C.A.
I’ll never make noise but just simply and sadly observe. It’s the outcome of what this world is giving me, my inadequacy.
The world is spinning so fast around and static I’m tied strong to the ground while the beat of my heart slows down. But it never stops! it never stops! no, it never stops!
it’s feeding my silence, is growing my silence.
and people are running so fast around and static I’m tied strong into sludge trying and retrying to free my withered legs that do not break, just do not break, no, never...
(I) can’t move, I can’t move by my own, I don’t understand your words, for God’s sake I leave my brain ability to adapt out.
I can’t move by my own I don’t understand your world for God’s sake I leave my heart ability to adapt out.
All this is up to live,living here today but all is up to death, everything’s up to death.
Everything is up to death, everything is up to silence.
RACE (-1 to 0 years old)
All around is the dark. A little confused sound of fiery life is going to start the Big Race. With no will and no choice, with no wish and no plan just a trigger from the deep, only a challenge to be The One. Just the competition to choose who will be who we are…
LIGHT (0 to 8 years old)
Screams… where have we found the strenght?
Screams… where has she found the strenght?
as in a hurricane of light and colours within a storm of voices and madness, the synergy that gives sense to all what will come. And for the second time we have to win, for the second time we have to fight side by side with those who did it before us, another time, why? Another time… why are we here? We’re feeling distant this world, we’re feeling cold the air around.
Open you eyes, light is all around now,
open your mouth, everyone can hear the sound of your force.
It’s not a choice to be in the world but it can be the best of your choices to be alive.
YOUTH (8 to 15 years old)
Every new day is like a game. A game for winners, sometimes for losers. The game that gives sense to each day of our lives. And for another time we have to fight and for another time we fight to win, side by side with those who did it before us.
who cares this time why are we here? We’re feeling a part of this world, we’re feeling the best in the world!
Open you eyes, light is still all around,
open your mouth, everyone can hear the sound of your force.
It’s wonderful to be in the world. It’s, for sure, the best of your choices to be alive.
LOVE (15 to 20 years old)
it’s time to start... the clock, the heart. Something rings aloud, a rumble breaks up the life. And we become blind and we become deaf and we live, strong. We live and then we die. And the world we knew turns into someone.
If only I could… if only she would…
nature’s fire burns inside, we don’t need to freeze time, we’re just living everything and we are everything. And the world we knew turns into someone.
But the story has much more to say!
NAUSEA (20 to 25 years old)
I’ll linger awake ‘till death I will never have enough
listen I’ll linger awake ‘til death overnight I’ll be the greatest
is this the way I am? Please, heaven, have mercy on me
Ah my friends I am ready, defeating the fucking world
Hey… stay upright in front of her and shut up, you fool!
Nothing is strong enough to beat me down, is strong enough to make me lose control. Strong enough to make me give it up, is strong enough to bend my life tonight.
Oh, something was strong enough to beat you down, was strong enough to make you lose control. Strong enough to make you give it up, was strong enough and finally you
open your eyes, light is still all around
now close your mouth, everyone has heard the sound of your force.
It seems you are still alive in this world and you start to miss your choices to feel alive.
ANXIETY (25 to 35 years old)
9 months are passed. Is this the end? or is it another start?
what is this confusion and what am I doing here? It’s happening… to us… to me.
Now the moment is strong enough to elevate us, is strong enough to make us take control. Strong enough to reveal a new life, is strong enough to make us say to you.
Open you eyes, light is all around now.
Open your mouth, here is your life, be sure we’ll be on your side.
HOPE (35 to 50 years old)
Looking at you I can’t remember me. Looking at you your eyes defeating me, will you be like me?
Our flesh, our bones, our smiles, our tears, thoroughly you’ve stolen everything!
All the things once we had. You destroyed every hated ghost, conserved every goodness. You became our secret hope.
DRAG (50 to 70 years old)
and now the future is here, the flower we raised has blossomed too soon and left us alone… again. You? You are not the same. Me? Neither. We didn’t realize we were fading away .
Now leave me alone, talking to the Moon, she’s the only one that never changes. We? We are not the same. We are older. You didn’t realize we have faded away.
M: Do you think the time we spent together makes sense today? I should be proud of us but the only thing I see is my old body, is your old body and no one here has eyes for us.
F: Do you think the time we’ll spend together will make sense tomorrow? I am sure we’ll find a way and the greatest thing I see is my kind unchanged eyes in your kind unchanged eyes.
Can’t you see? at last we are One.
As the body gives up the mind and the heart rise to the top of the life.
As the body collapses the light is on each other’s life.
SOLITUDE (70 to 90 years old)
but again, I’m alone ‘cause you are gone. No colours around at the end of all I knew.
Just the movie of my past. I’m forced to inspect every scene, I was the Actor, I was the Director, now I’m the spectator.
DEATH (90 to infinity)
Silence… where am I going this way?
Silence… where have you gone that way?
without even a shred of good mercy, within a ghostly silence and madness the ground takes me and my story to erase all I have done. And for an only one time we forget to win, and for an only one time we forget to fight, to join the crowd of those who leave before us. another time, yes… another time why are we here? We’re feeling distant the world, we’re feeling cold inside, we die.
I’ve closed my eyes, light is all around now
I’ve closed my mouth, no one can hear the words from my soul
“it’s not a choice to be in the world but it can be the best of your choices to be alive”
“it’s not a choice to be in the world it will be the best of your choices to be alive”
MAKE YOUR CHOICE!
Ode to the Equilibrium
That worthless body, your face, the aspect you believe to be yours... Here I am to you. This is your frozen night.
Don’t lie to the mask you receive, embrace me and the world you see beside your skin. I exhort your heart to forget.
Everything is chaos inside, everything will be stable inside! We've chosen you to remold, we've chosen you to stabilize the waves.
And you'll believe in the life you receive, embrace it and the world you'll see, inside our skin. I exhort your heart to forget.
This is your frozen night.
Deeply dedicated to Phil